Que Gurni?

Is a Nepali expression I've picked up. It basically means, "What to do? or what can I do?" This is about where I stand in my life at the moment. I'm poised between a decision that I don't particularly want to make: Extend my Nepali visa or get an Indian visa and hop back across the border. Visas are the only thing that keeps me from being entirely free in this wander. Visa free travel across the globe is an ideal that will take some time to realize.
Coming back from spending a month in the mountains and hills have inspired me hugely, the combination of adventure, huge mountains, amazing people and so many new experiences has me bubbling with inspiration. I have so many ideas bouncing around in my head I'm not sure where to put them all. Actually I am sure, I want to put them here. This blog is my project. It has a dual purpose, to keep people informed about where I am and what I'm doing, and to share a little bit of the experiences that are changing my life. As I've been traveling, now 8 months in the subcontinent the lessons that I've learned have been immeasurable. I'm receiving an education that is profound and exactly what I need in my life. I've always been an experiential learner. I can remember touching my grandmother's electric stove top just to see how hot it was after she turned her back. I knew it was hot, it cooks food right, but I couldn't see any flame like our gas stove at home. So I learned the hard way. This adventure is exactly like that. I'm learning by living the lives of the people and places I go. It is putting my bubbly enthusiasm and optimism in it's place, but in a way that only these experiences could do. There is so much to be said and so little time, I loath sitting on the computer while life passes me by. But second to calling my parents and telling them that I'm alive after a month of wandering, I felt the desire to share my experiences with other people. The readers of my blog are the best audience for me to share these wonderful lessons with. Most people know me well and can understand my writing as well as who I am and what angle I'm approaching the world.
So basically, what I'm trying to say is, I want to pour as much of these wild and amazing experiences into my blog. I will do my best to share more tan the basic facts but to delve deeper into the reality of what these expericences are and the lives of the people I meet. It is the people that inspire me, the kindness and warmth that is given to a total stranger like me constantly blows my mind. People here have so little in comparison to us in the U.S. yet they give so freely and openly, with joy and love. I want to do these people and places justice. I want to paint a picture with my words, let you see through my eyes the world that is teaching me to be human. Not everyone has the opportunity to do what I'm doing, I want to share my lessons with you, those that can, I want to inspire you. As humans we are all poised at the brink, but we can't see the edge, we've created a global society based on money and greed, we've pushed the planet's capacity to house life to the edge but we keep on steaming forward. We have a global economy, but no global community.
My life's goal is to make as big of a positive change as I can for humanity and the earth. I'm living my dream. When I sit down with a Nepali man, 68 years old and who calls English, "tourist language" and talk with him, in his own language after spending a day working the fields alongside him. I'm confident that I'm working on connecting the global community, by being an ambassador of our country and more importantly by being human. What he doesn't realize is the change he's making in my life, because he is teaching me lessons that run deeper than the words we are sharing.
I'm going off on a rant, but the point of this post is to say that I'm inspired, to continue to make a change in as big of a way as I can and to continue learning in this wonderful school of life. I want this blog to be my project, my testimonial to the experiences and the people that are teaching me along the way. I want to pull back the veil from my own eyes and in turn shed light and do justice to these amazing people across the globe.
More to come, I really want to hold on to this feeling and pour it into the cyberspace for everyone. I've gotta unclutter the ideas and get them organized. Whn I just sit down to write I drop these wandering blogposts that accuratly represent where I am but just might be a little to scattered to have the desired effect.
Thank you everyone who reads my blog, especially those who respond. It's come to my attention that my email might be hard to find. If you click on the photo of me under "Who am I?" my email is there. I love getting emails from people and I will send you a reply for sure.